Saturday, June 02, 2007

I should be out jogging right now. My Bear was so kind as to give me a little extra money so I could get some good running shoes. After two knee surgeries, it would be stupid to not take the precaussion. I also run with a brace on my left knee WHICH has bothered me since I was a kid. Even surgery didn't help that one.

My eldest is in D.C. with a group of eighth graders. That includes 8th grade girls with boobs that are way too big wearing shirts that are way too small and pants that they roll down so low you KNOW they had to shave. And their mothers will wonder why they're pregnant at 15.

We have our first hatchlings here at the farm. They're so cute, but I can't get a picture because the mamma hen pecks me when I pull her nest out to look at them. I'll get you pictures when she pushes them out of the nest in another week.

We are also babysitting a baby goat this weekend. He has to be bottle fed three times a day. It's so much fun!!! That I have pictures of and will post later.

I'm having thoughts about my blog. You see, when I started "The True Bitch Inside" I was angry at the world, angry at God, and had a chip on my shoulder the size of Gilbrata. That is no longer the case. I still have pockets of anger that I'm sure I'll have to deal with for the rest of my life, but I no longer wish to make anger the center point of my life. I don't want to be known for that. I don't think that I want to be Krystal the Bitch any more.

So I sit and ponder what to do with this blog.

Oh, and happy June!


The Dung Beetle said...

I can relate to your blog crossroad situation. I first created my blog to have a place where I can be completely honest with myself about everything. I hid it from Bookie and everyone I knew. Eventually I shared it with Bookie because I felt dirty, like I was being unfaithful.

Then it became a platform for my book.

Then, when I discovered I had an audience, it became a place to showcase my acerbic humor.

Now, I haven't the slightest idea where I want to go with it, so I wing it, and now it's a hodgepodge of random bullcrap.

My advice is to just wing it and see what comes out. You seem happier in your recent entries, especially when it comes to Bear so... perhaps a phoenix rising from the ashes theme? Nah... too corny.

Krystal's Ark? Hmmm... too biblical.

Yeah... just wing it.

BostonPobble said...

Whatever title you end up with, Good For You for realizing your anger no longer serves you. Personally, I think anger Absolutely has a time and a place and can serve us well. However, too many people get so caught up in the anger that they are unable or unwilling to realize when it is no longer helpful, healing or productive. TTG for your wisdom and willingness to let go and focus on other stuff now.

Barney said...

I completly understand your dilemma w/your blog.

I too started mine to just get out some of the anger that was locked w/in me. Now.. life has a rosier hue to it, and Im not as angry as I once was.

But.. having the blog has been my form of "therapy" since I refuse to talk to people.

Just wing it.. when you have a moment and thoughts that you need to get out, just sit down and let words flow. It's amazing how it can set an emotion free.

Krystal said...

Thanks for the kind words. I'll keep going for now. I may have a title in mind. Tossing it about. :)